two.

there were few, few more than i know.
but they missed the bus,
and were lost in the snow.
then there was fewer,
i thought you were here
but i wasn't so sure.
then there were four,
we weren't many,
but i thought there was more.
then there was three
i remember it well
because we couldn't agree.
then it was you
everything was alright
because it was just us two.
then there was you,
just us two.us two.
two.

some goals are just failures waiting for the finish line

I'm super tired right now.
Not the usual tired, where you are completely exhausted from running around and working hard.
A kind of mental exhaustion, even though I've done nothing today. Nada, zip.
I'm embarrassed by it and really want to work hard but I can't get my brain to do any of it. I have two essays due next week, one on tuesday and another on friday and I've at least picked a subject for one of them and did the research while the other that is due sooner hasn't even been touched. For some reason my energy has been zapped, my love for learning [whatever was left of it] is dead.
Super tired, very embarrassed.

My goals are already dead before they smell the fresh air.
Uuuuugh.
Help? <3

Saskatoon...

It's fucking cold.
Waiting for a bus, all alone.
Fucking. Cold.
I miss home where I could call friends and family to come pick me up.
Sure they'd say no but at least I had that option...
Cold.

Bro Code to become the Ho Code?

If you've watched How I Met Your Mother, are male or work/spend a lot of time at a bookstore than you know of something called the Bro Code. If you don't, and you're male, you should be ashamed. The Bro Code is a list of rules [codes, get it?] that men aka "bros" should follow when among their fellow "bros". It goes from the expected [Bros before Hos] to the less graceful [Bros shall never make eye contact during a Devil's Threeway [one chick two dudes].

My question is, where's my [for lacker of a better title] Ho Code?

Really, I think women should have one. I don't think it's sexist to say that yes, women are sneakier and more prone to commiting dirty deeds when it comes to getting a male wrapped around our finger. Wrapped around our finger is completely different than what Barney Stinson from How I Met Your Mother does [one night stands]. Usually women like being able to take something others want, that's our fun.
So perhaps a "Ho Code" is needed, a set of rules or guidelines for chicks to follow when out with their own. That way we'll know what to expect.

Just a thought. Any codes you'd want to see in the Ho Code?
An example: Chicks before dicks.
Seems pretty obvious.

Love, Me. :-)

with friends like these, who needs enemies.

No friend will insult you or make you feel worse about yourself.
No friend will kick you when you're down.
No friend will trick you, lie to you or purposefully hurt you.
No friend will ever judge you.
No friend will ever laugh at you.
No friend will waste your time because your time is worthwhile.

Instead...

Friends will compliment you and do everything to help you shine.
Friends will help you up if you fall.
Friends will only trick you or lie to you if there is a surprise party involved [coughcough] and when they realise they have hurt you they'll do everything they can to make it right.
Friends will accept you and usually help you in your insanity.
Friends will laugh with you.
Friends will realise you are worth everything in the world because you know they are too.

Love, Me.

ashes ashes we all fall down!

Kind of a creepy title, sorry.

Just so many times women focus on guys, and even though you know you shouldn't and that you've been hurt before it just keeps happening and even though you know the landing is going to hurt you still jump off that diving board that's just a teeeeeny bit too high!
And I've done it, over and over, though I keep telling myself I'm not taking this crap anymore. Then I see the people I love most going through it over and over again, which just breaks my heart because I want everything to go perfectly for the people I care most in the WORLD!
It's a sad circle of lust and longing for something bigger than yourself. The sad truth is before you can walk that tricky tightrope you have to gain your balance. Most of the times [continuing with my bad analogy] women/girls start the tightrope and fall but manage to catch themselves, frightening themselves to death and promising never to try again until you stand up and think you can do it this time. The worst is when you run at that rope and can't catch yourself.
That was a horrible analogy. I'm so sorry, no really I am.
Just me saying, in the end, please don't walk on the tightrope anytime soon.

Love, Me.

college tip #11

Numero 11!
Laundry.
There's nothing else to say. When you don't do your laundry you're already going against tips number 7 and 9!

Trust me, I'm a doctor.
Love, the Matchboxtress

P.S. I'm not aaaaactually a doctor...
Sorry.

November - Month of Movies!!!

So many movies I want to see this November! I will happily deplete my bank account to go see all these movies!! Here's a short list:

Already Out
- Due Date
- Megamind

November 10
- Morning Glory:
Rachel McAdams, Harrison Ford and Diane Keaton star, along with Patrick Wilson and Jeff Goldblum. When hard-working TV producer Becky Fuller (McAdams) is fired from a local news program, her career begins to look as bleak as her hapless love life. Stumbling into a job at "Daybreak" (the last-place national morning news show), Becky decides to revitalize the show by bringing on legendary TV anchor Mike Pomeroy (Ford). Unfortunately, Pomeroy refuses to cover morning show staples like celebrity gossip, weather, fashion and crafts, let alone work with his new co-host, Colleen Peck (Keaton), a former beauty queen and longtime morning show personality, who is more than happy covering morning "news." As Mike and Colleen clash, first behind the scenes and then on the air, Becky's blossoming love affair with fellow producer, Adam Bennett (Wilson) begins to unravel. And soon Becky is struggling to save her relationship, her reputation, her job and ultimately, the show itself 

November 12
- Unstoppable:
Unstoppable, a 20th Century Fox drama about a runaway train carrying a cargo of toxic chemicals. Pits an engineer and his conductor in a race against time. They're chasing the runaway t... read morerain in a separate locomotive and need to bring it under control before it derails on a curve and causes a toxic spill that will decimate a town.


November 19
- HARRY POTTER 7 PART 1:
Description? One word. EPIC.

November 24
- Tangled:
When the kingdom's most wanted-and most charming-bandit Flynn Rider (voice of Zachary Levi) hides out in a mysterious tower, he's taken hostage by Rapunzel (voice of Mandy Moore), a beautiful and feisty tower-bound teen with 70 feet of magical, golden hair. Flynn's curious captor, who's looking for her ticket out of the tower where she's been locked away for years, strikes a deal with the handsome thief and the unlikely duo sets off on an action-packed escapade, complete with a super-cop horse, an over-protective chameleon and a gruff gang of pub thugs. In theaters this holiday season in Disney Digital 3D(TM), "Tangled" is a story of adventure, heart, humor and hair-lots of hair.

December 10:
- The Tourist:
Revolves around Frank, an American tourist visiting Italy to mend a broken heart. Elise is an extraordinary woman who deliberately crosses his path.


- The Fighter:
A look at the early years of boxer "Irish" Micky Ward and his brother who helped train him before going pro in the mid '80s.
 
Movies out but I'm going to wait for the dvd release:
- Red
- Easy A
- Wall Street 2
- You Again
 
Any movies you're dying to see?

college tips #2 - #10

Let's see how many tips I can get into one post shall we?

Tip #2 - Expect the unexpected.
Such as a roomie moving in with you a third way through the term. Hope for the best but prepare for the worst, and I was not prepared. Two days before Jordano was to arrive, I was blessed with a roommate who was uncomfortable with a male presence and so she stayed with her younger sister in another dorm. Awkward? Yes. Uncomfortable? Very. Solution found? Undubidibly. [I don't know how to spell that. Sound it out...] In the end we got a hotel room for the last night and stayed in, relaxing in a unusually hot room.

Tip #3 - Study, even if you don't think you have to.
This may seem obvious, but if I've learned anything after receiving a few midterms and tests back, it's that studying is KEY.

Tip #4 - Study over a period of a couple of days, not the night before.
Don't be a smartass and try to find a loophole to my previous tip, that just makes me need to spell everything out. At the very least, study the three days prior to the test. I don't have a great memory so cramming everything last minute won't help but studying over a period of two weeks won't do much either. So help yourself out and don't stay up until the wee hours on coffee [unless it's a last minute essay where staying up as late as need be is allowed] because you won't remember anything except that last thought before going to bed thinking "Fuck I'm screwed... I can't wait for tomorrow's episode of Glee." And then you're so tired you fall asleep and only remember Glee the following morning. Don't fuck yourself.

Tip #5 - Go to your classes.
I don't care if you tell yourself you know all of this. Prove it by getting a badass mark on your first test, because otherwise assume you know NOTHING and/or need to relearn it all over again. Even if one class you aren't doing anything but talking about your weekends, go in anyways because maybe the prof will mention how he wrote the exam drunk so don't bother answering all the odd questions. You never know! Not to mention it's a slippery slope if you tell yourself you can miss one class, than another, than another until you're not going to ANY. It's just not a good idea to miss any classes, period.

Tip #6 - Make one friend [at least!] in all your classes.
Granted I can't say I've actually done it, but I've got to get my ass moving on this tip. If the day finally comes when you're too hungover to go to class, or maybe you forgot to take notes or even if you just NEED a study buddy, having that one person you can message [perhaps slightly awkwardly] asking for help, it's easier and a LOT less fucking annoying than mass emailing everyone because really, who wants to help someone who mass emails them and fills their inbox. NOT ME!

Tip #7 - Keep up your health.
This is a very brooooooooooad tip, so I don't expect everyone to follow. I also don't expect everyone to get it. When living away from home, there's the Freshman Fifteen every student dreads. You don't want to leave at the summer looking good and come home feeling gross. Right now I'm more towards the latter. I don't want anyone to see me, I feel nasty. I think that's more just now because I really need a shower, but also because I don't work and don't run around campus as much as back home I'm getting less of a workout [even though that's not really a workout, you're still moving] and that's making me extremely sluggish. So don't do that, don't get "sluggish" [love that word] and don't start skipping out on usual habits like mouthwash, flossing, brushing your hair or even brushing your teeth because when you get home and go out to celebrate with your friends how THANK GOD you're finally home you don't want to repel everyone.

Tip #8 - Do stuff.
Vague? Not at all. Whatchu talkin' 'bout? Sorry, couldn't resist. Do stuff. Just do it. If, like me, you haven't really met many people yet and even feeling kind of alone, go out there and do stuff. Even if it's by yourself. Every girly magazine [and hopefully guy magazine] out there will ALL agree that the best place to pick someone up is not the usual place [a bar or a club] but instead somewhere out there like a coffee house, electronics store, BOOKSTORE or even a grocery store or cornerstore.
So even if you have friends that mock doing things on your own, going out by yourself, DO IT. Movies, book browsing, shopping, anything. Hey, you don't know anyone so it shouldn't matter what these nobodies think [and if you do become friends with people who earlier judged you, they'll understand why you did the things you did].

Tip #9 - Do NOT let yourself go.
If that means working out, primping a bit before class or even brushing your teeth or showering a bit longer don't hesitate. Letting yourself go is one of the worst things you can do, because really you're only letting yourself down. Sure if you feel sexy wearing pj pants [as I often do] than wear them, but if you're getting up for class put on make-up or cologne, grab your best duds and walk out of your room [or off the bus] in style. Walk like you own the place and then, in reality, you will. I've started to let myself go and I always catch myself. I loathe sweats, mainly on guys [because girls can sometimes pull them off] and feel disgusting if I don't have time to brush my teeth before class. Look goooood because soon enough the world is going to become an ugly ugly place if you don't.

Tangent:
My person fashion advice: Keep your sweats for indoor use where NO ONE can see you, keep your Lulu Lemon pants for weekends when doing the groceries and please, buy a GOOD pair of jeans because jeans classy anything up. Too much make-up makes you look like a hooker and too much cologne or aftershave makes you smell like a gigalo [or however you spell that] and that's NOT a good thing.

Tip #10 - Stock up on water!
Already the last tip of the night? Damn...
Anyways: Stock up on WATER. No calories, refreshing and a brain stimulant [which I learned recently!]. It'll keep you healthy, get your brain moving and if you spill it it'll just dry and won't smell bad.
Get those big packages because in no time they'll be all gone!!

Trust me, I'm a doctor.
Love, the Matchboxtress!

P.S. I'm not a doctor...